Adulthood.

I am now an adult! Well closer to one at least! I know your probably thinking, your 25 you've been an adult for a while! But I wasn't a very responsible adult. I'm not gonna lie I pretty much used school as an excuse to not grow up. Well at least to delay the responsibility of adulthood. It's not fun being an adult! Seriously you have so much expectations. Yes I know you will always have them, but they get worse as you get older.

In ways it's almost like your expected not to make any mistakes because your old enough to know better. Which is kinda crazy right? Your supposed to be able to support yourself in all aspects. Let's be honest it's kinda hard right now with the economy being in such a poor state. Unfortunately it doesn't seem to be changing anytime soon. For my brother & I we have been spoiled. Literally. They help with everything which is good, because parents should be there for their children. At the same time its a bad thing because its taken us longer to become independent adults.

I had a time where I had a test of "adulthood" and for the most part it was awesome because I did what I wanted. Lol. But their is a million things to do and worry about! Cleaning, cooking, paying bills, managing money, & the list can go on. Now I enjoyed that time in my life & I really learned about the struggles of being an adult out in the world. I'm glad I had that experience because I was able to understand my parents more than I did before. & I sure as hell appreciated them more.

Since I have been back home after learning a little about life I have kinda been wandering. I say that because I wasn't really doing anything with my life. Yes I was in school, but honestly that doesn't make you an adult. It's working & juggling school or kids or taking care of a household and a bunch of other things. For a while now it kinda seemed like I was stuck, because I wanted to work but wasn't. & not because I wasn't looking, trust me I was, but I just wasn't getting called back. But thankfully I can now say I am employed!

I have worked before but I didn't feel as satisfied as I do now. Don't get me wrong I LOVED my previous job & if I could I would love to work their again. The difference between then & now was that I had someone (Not my parents) who I knew was there to take care of me. That I knew I could depend on. I used to be a pretty dependent person. It was either on my parents or an ex from my past. Now that I don't like depending on my parents & I don't have anyone else to depend on I can finally learn to be more independent. It's a pretty great feeling I must say!

I recently got a position at a freight company & so far I like it. It's a 40 hour job & I work in the office. I'm slowly learning the day to day operations of managing deliveries of goods to grocery stores. It really is a whole lot that goes on that I never even thought about. I'm excited to learn a whole new set of skills. I know there will be days that it will suck but at the end of the day I know that I don't have to depend on anyone else to support me. I can go out & shop or go out with my friends & be able do that as a result of working & earning my check. How could that not be a great feeling?

Adulthood I welcome you with open arms...

XOXO,